until I lost it

I have feelt pretty uncreative in the last time, actually for a pretty long time. 

I think since late 2016 I haven't feelt like my self art wise. Or anything else wise but hey 

Like all the images in my head went away. 

I feel like everything I do is so mediocre, every motive becomes doll and every line I draw becomes to much or nothing at all. Or just wrong. 

I don't write poetry like I used to. I can't seem to find the words. 

I can't seem to find my world. 

It's like I don't know what I want to draw, at the same time it feels like I'm even to weak to draw. Everything I come up with is just meaningless and nothing to feel accomplished about. 

Every poetry is just scrambled words that sounds forced. 

It's not a flow as it used to. It's harder to pic up my art supplys. 

I force myself to draw just to draw til something falls down. 

But nothing feels right.