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So I haven't eaten so good lately. I feel very weak and nauseated and I don't enjoy food like I normaly do.

I hate how much fat I gaind and I do like the thought of losing it, but I'm also so tierd of feeling this weak and helpless.

I go and swim at the public pool a few times a week and that is about all I habe strenght for to do. When I'm home I'm mostly in bed and I have a lot of pain in my body right now so I don't move around or paint a whole lot.

I don't know what to do.

Dying would be the easy way out, but I'm affraid I can't have that as a option anymore.

I hate this world.