Alone time vs friend time

I enjoyed being alone more and more, last year when I lived in a bigger city I was on restaurants alone, drinking in bar's alone. It was nice to be in my own world and just look at people as they passed me by. 

There is ofc times I don't want to be alone, that I just need someone next to me, or to acknowledge that I exist. 

But I do like to just be in the same room like someone else and do you're own thing in each other's company. 

I think I enjoy being by myself more then a lot of people do, but I know I'm far from alone (hehe) to enjoy being by myself. 

With this said I still feel very much pain when I feel friendless, it's not the same thing to be alone and have time by yourself and to feel like you don't have any friends. 

I do feel alone in that sense. I feel like I have my friends somewhere else and that makes me feel almost abandoned but not like they left me not to be my friend anymore or that we wouldn't see each other, just that I don't have the support that I got used to when I moved here. The physical human who I could talk to or just sit in the same room with in each other's own worlds.