Special Objects

So I have this stuffed animal, or Mjao Mjao cuz that's he's name. So Mjao mjao is pretty used I guess, he was dirty and all the softness inside of him had dide. So I opend him up, emptyed him, washed him and let him dry. I had bought a pillow earlier that day and opend that one up and when Mjao mjao was dry I filled him up and then sowed him back together. I do enjoy recycle and the thought of a child enjoying this pillow one day makes me wanna take good care of this softness to pass on later. When I'm done with him..

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I bought this cat shaped pillow at a Con in Sthlm for about 2 years ago. I really like pillows and everything sleep related. During this time I was very chaotic and I ended up clinging on to it a whole lot. I ended up being dependent on it. I brought it everywhere. Even as I got hospitalized I cryed out for my cat, my securety. In so many ways I'm still a child, scared, confussed and desperet to be loved and safe.

So Mjao mjao got to be my protection, among other things for example the tv show RuPauls DragRace that I have become addicted to but that's for another story..

I used to have animals, family dogs and cats. So to have the comfort of my own sleepy little cat that's just there. Even if it's stupid, it calms me down. And I'm always looking for things that will help me calm down and not stress as mutch.

I think everyone deserves methods to get calmer and leave some anxiety behind.