Trapped in trash
So for a long time I have had a horder tendency. I have been collecting plastic bags, erasers, dolls, clothing and a amazing amount of art supplies til the point that a lot of it is just kinda, old trash.
I have had a enormous problem throwing things, instead I have cluttered my spaces and with that cluttered my mind.
I have been so stressed out and depressed and I didn't realize that it was so connected not only with the mess but the objects. I could never let go of things. So I would never let go of my feelings around the item.
Unfortunately I'm now so afraid of getting the apartment cluttered that I feel a constant stress about getting rid of things. I get stressed over how much stuff we have even tho it's all good things, I mean I could always throw away some more. I could always just get it a little more empty.
But atleast I'm not swimming in trash anymore