Bad news

So, I was supposed to visit someone I have been talking to online. I met her when I was hospitalized, she speaks in a soft voice and everything with her is petit.

We didn't talk after I got let out for Christmas, and she too went home.

And just a feew weeks back she texted me and told me she had a crush on me. My heart flutterd.

(Im poly so don't overthink all my crushes and relationships) 

Talking to her has made me calmer, like just knowing she exist. To have someone to challenge my mind and... I dunno

She just told me I can't come cuz she has rouls to obey where she lives raight now. And they took a few privileges away that makes it impossible for me to visit. 

Im just fucking sad on a already bad day