Tomorrows appointment

I don't like to visit hospitals, I don't like taking medication, I don't like doctors.

But I have to go, and I hope it will go well.

It's my first meeting and I guess it will become clearer if we are going to do a diagnostic investigation or not.

I don't know if I want a diagnos, but I don't know if I don't want one either. I mean, it can certainly make thinks clearer, I would be able to read about myself witch would be interesting since I have sutch a hard time looking at myself. I would have a deeper understanding for myself. Or I would get caught up in it and think that I am my diagnos more than I am me with a diagnos. What if people wount take me seriously because of a diagnos, or what if I don't get a diagnos and people wouldn't take my pain seriously...

Do I want a diagnos for me? Or for everyone else?

Will this haunt me more then help me

Will everything I do become a question if Im appropriate to it or not.